Sunday, April 29, 2007
Saturday, April 28, 2007
Thursday, we were to the funeral home for the visitation. When Curtis and I went in to see Jon and Rachel, I honestly couldn't believe that they were still standing. The strength that they showed was so incredible! Rachel was holding Knox's doggie. That broke my heart.
There was a picture collage with many pictures of Knox and his family. I found myself smiling, thinking about all the sweet moments that Knox had brought to my life. Then I saw a picture of him at his first birthday. It brought tears to my eyes to think that his first birthday would be the only birthday he would celebrate. At the top of the collage were the words, "Always a Joy."
The service on Friday was so touching, yet incredibly worshipful. We sang the song "What 'ere My God Ordains is Right". What a testimony of faith! There were scripture readings, always pointing us to Christ, and his unending love for us. Then, the most touching part of the service, when Jon spoke in memory of Knox. At that moment, Jon was an amazing testimony to God's love, sovereignty, and goodness. We were amazed to see God work through Jon, in such an hour of grief, to be able to stand as a witness to all that God has done.
The service was worshipful. I left in tears, but resting in the comfort of my Savior, and of His promises to me and my children.
Continue to lift the Andersons up in prayer. It was encouraging to see the strength that they have, and the hope that they have in Christ.
Thursday, April 26, 2007
The reason it's called Friendship bread is that you are supposed to give some of your starter away, thus sharing in the fun. My best friend, Christi, gave me my bag of starter. Thankfully, she gave it to me on Day 9, so all I had to do was make the bread, and the four new bags of starter. But now, one Day 3 of the new cycle, as I look at the bags of yeasty mess that I have to deal with every day, I'm not so sure about the whole friendship part of the process.
You have to deal with these bags, every day. Then, on day 10, you have to make bread. Oh, and because of the yeast, you can't use metal bowls or spoons. For me, that means no mixer! Gee thanks! Amish Friendship Bread = more work! And did I mention that this bread is so good, you could eat it all day, every day, gaining 10 lbs in a week?
In all actuality, it's worth it! The bread is sooooo yummy! And you can make it different ways, with nuts, raisins or even chocolate. The work isn't all that bad, because if it was, I so wouldn't be messing with it at this point in my life. Plus, every time I mush my starter bag, I get to think of my sweet friend Christi!
Anyone want some starter?
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
"He will tend his flock like a shepherd; he will gather the lambs in his arms;he will carry them in his bosom, and gently lead those that are with young. Who has measured the waters in the hollow of his hand and marked off the heavens with a span,enclosed the dust of the earth in a measure and weighed the mountains in scales and the hills in a balance? Who has measured the Spirit of the LORD, or what man shows him his counsel? Whom did he consult, and who made him understand? Who taught him the path of justice, and taught him knowledge, and showed him the way of understanding?" Isaiah 40:11-14
Last night, Knox passed away.
It all seems so far beyond my understanding. I know that God is good. I know that all things will work together for the good of those who love Him. And I know that God cares for His own more than anything. Yet, I don't know how all this aligns in the death of Knox.
But, God's plans are higher than any of my plans. As I was reading Isaiah, seeking comfort, I was reminded how awesome our God is. Even when situations don't make sense, I know that he is good.
Please continue to keep the Anderson family in your prayers. As a parent, I cant' even begin to imagine the sorrow that they are filled with. But I do know the hope that they are filled with. And even through this time, I see them clinging to that Hope.
"The eyes of the LORD are toward the righteous
and his ears toward their cry.
The face of the LORD is against those who do evil,
to cut off the memory of them from the earth.
When the righteous cry for help, the LORD hears
and delivers them out of all their troubles.
The LORD is near to the brokenhearted
and saves the crushed in spirit."
Psalm 34: 15-18
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!
This song is one of my personal favorites. It's been sung on many different occasions in my life.
The first occasion that comes to my mind is our wedding day. To help us focus our attention on the reason we were all there, Curtis and I had "How Great Thou Art" sung corporately. The song beautifully depicts how thankful we were to God for bringing us together, in his great goodness.
After that, it was sung at Curtis' mom's funeral. What a true statement on how she felt about her savior! The song now had bitter sweet memories for me. The final verse was especially poignant.
When Christ shall come, with shout of acclamation,
And take me home, what joy shall fill my heart.
Then I shall bow, in humble adoration,
And then proclaim: "My God, how great Thou art!"
During the service when Elizabeth was baptized, we sang this song. As I held my first child, I was in awe of how great God is, and how great his love for me is.
And when I think, that God, His Son not sparing;
Sent Him to die, I scarce can take it in;
That on the Cross, my burden gladly bearing,
He bled and died to take away my sin.
Today in church we sang this song. Today's service was bitter sweet. We were joined together as a family, worshipping our Savior. But at the same time, we were together as a family struggling with everything that has happened to a very dear family in our church body.
I realized that it is not until I look at the greatness of God, that I can find total and complete comfort in Him. So much of what has happened seems so unimaginable, and so out of control. But God is great! And even when we don't understand, and even when it's hard to find the joy, we can cling to the promise that God is great. He has done great things, and he will continue to do great things in the lives of those who love him.
Please continue to pray for the Andersons. Tomorrow there will be more tests run, to try to give a more accurate prognosis for Knox. In all this, we know that God is great. And we know that everything will work for our good and His glory!
Friday, April 20, 2007
This past Wednesday, Curtis and I had the opportunity to go see the Jon, Rachel and Knox in Temple. We drove up with one of our Elders, Norval.
Since Knox and Micah can strongly resemble each other at times, we were frequently asked if we were prepared to see Knox. We answered yes, but in my head, I knew that they was no way I could be ready.
But God was very gracious, and we had a very sweet visit with our friends and with Knox. Every time I looked at Rachel, my heart broke once again. I am so thankful that she is able to trust in God, the only source of true comfort. It was such a blessing to see her hold and bathe Knox. It was also such a blessing to be able to love on Knox, to kiss on him, and to just talk to him. What a strong faith these parents have! What a testimony they are being to those around them, even when it's us who should be ministering to them.
Through all of this, God has been teaching me many things. Every night I sing the song "God is so Good" to Micah. I have been reminded that God is good, at all times and in everything. Nothing that has happened to the Andersons and nothing that will happen is our of His control or will.
I am also very aware of my own selfishness. I keep trying to find things that I can do to "help" the Andersons. In reality, I can do nothing than continually pray for them. But, being the selfish person I am, I try to find way to help and fix the situation. How silly am I? The Creator of the universe and of Knox only asks that we pray and minister to our brother and sister as we can.
What has truly touched me the most has been the out pouring of love. While we were at the hospital, a doctor came in, simply to pray over Knox. He had heard about the Andersons through his wife's home school group, and felt lead to come see Knox. The nurse brought in a message from a pastor in Houston, who just wanted to let the Andersons know that he and his church were praying. Never before have I seen a more true example of the covenantal church, world wide. Our church aches with Jon and Rachel. Knox is part of our covenant family, and we all love him dearly.
Please keep praying for Knox, as well as his family. Keep checking our church web site for updates. Thank you for your prayers!
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Monday, April 16, 2007
During the night Sunday or very early Monday morning, Knox’s pupils became unresponsive and uneven when stimulated by light. The doctors are reducing the amount of anti-seizure medicine in order to better assess Knox’s situation.
Today, please pray specifically for the following:
*his pupils would be both equal and responsive to light stimuli
*there would be no more seizures
*the EEG done today was not flat-line but showed minimal brain activity. The doctor is pessimistic. They will continue reducing the anti-seizure medicine and will do other EEGs
Please keep praying.
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Specific Prayer Requests
* That Knox's lungs would be healed. They sustained a lot of damage, but are looking better. Praise!!!
* Knox's eyes are responding when exposed to light. HUGE praise!!! Pray that he would continue to become more responsive. The next step is for him to begin to feel pain, so even though that's odd, pray that he would feel pain.
*Pray for his parents, Jon and Rachel. I can't even begin to imagine what they are going through right now. Pray that God would put a hedge of peace and comfort around them.
* Pray for Knox's four older siblings. They are here in College Station, while their parents are in Temple. Pray for calm, comfort, and peace.
*Jon has asked that we pray that God would be merciful to Knox, whether that be to bring him to a full recovery, or to take him home. Even though that is probably the hardest prayer I have ever prayed, please join me in praying for God's mercy to Knox, in whatever way His will would allow.
Jon is the associate pastor at our church. The Andersons have become dear friends to us over the past 18 months they have been here. Please lift up this family in prayer.
"The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed,
a stronghold in times of trouble.
Thos who know your name will trust in you,
for you, Lord, have never forsaken thos who see you."
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Monday, April 09, 2007
Here's the long version.
Curtis and I went to bed at about 11 last night. Elizabeth woke up at about 1:30 with a very wet bed. It took Curtis almost 30 minutes to get her calm enough to go back to sleep. At 2:45, I was woken up by a very weird noise from the back yard, followed by all the electricity going out. I wake up Curtis, and sure enough (from what we can tell in the middle of the night) the electricity is out in the entire neighborhood. And of course there is no one you can get a hold of at 3am. We decide to set the alarm on the cell phone, and go back to sleep. Or at least that's what we tried to do. Curtis sleeps with a CPAP (which runs off electricity) that prevents him from snoring. I've gotten very used to have a husband who doesn't snore, and it took me awhile to readjust to the snoring situation. The phone alarm goes off at 4:45. The electricity is back on, so Curtis and I begin to get ready for the morning.
We wake the kids up at 5:45, leave the house at 6:00, take Elizabeth to our pastor's house, and are at the hospital at 6:30. We get checked in, Micah got the check out from the nurse, the anaesthesiologist, and then we wait. We wait till about 7:45, and the doctor comes in, assures us everything will be fine, and that they will take him back soon. At this point, Micah is exhausted. He falls asleep, and finally, at about 8:25 they come back to get him. Thankfully, he stayed asleep, making the leaving Mommy and Daddy situation very smooth.
Ten minutes later, the doctor comes in to tell us that everything is good, and that they will be bringing Micah back in shortly. Sure enough, not even 10 minutes later, they bring Micah back. He looks at me, and bursts into tears. I snuggle him, get him something to drink and he calms down. Then, he figures out that he has an oxygen monitor on his finger, and that just ticks him off. He screamed and cried, and wiggled just enough that the monitor comes loose, and he flat lined (on the monitor at least). This happens one other time, and the nurse came in, said he was obviously breathing, and took the monitor off. One of the nurses from the OR comes in to check on Micah. She tells us that they have nicknamed Micah "Wild Child." Apparently, waking up from his anaesthesia, he was quite unhappy, and made sure everyone around knew it. He even has some nice scratches to show from his little fit.
Besides being very tired, everyone is doing great. We are ALL going to go take a nap now! Thank you for your thoughts and prayers!
Sunday, April 08, 2007
Curtis and I. Even though we know this is very minor and routine, it's still a little scary.
Thanks in advance!
Micah is much more laid back in his approach. Just shove as much in your mouth as you can, don't worry about the mess.....
...and savor the delicious taste of victory!