Some day, when you are older, you will read this blog and realize that I never did a birthday post for you when you turned 5. And though I could write a quick blog, put up some pictures, post date it, and you'd never know the difference, I've decided not to. Let me explain.
The past several months that we've faced as a family have been the hardest months of my life. Aside from losing your Grammii, your daddy and I have never faced anything quite as hard as the road we've been walking. When you were a baby, and we had your wonky head fixed, that was a hard road. Mommy and Daddy were so scared for you, our little baby, facing such a huge surgery. I used this blog, and your blog, to recount the amazing work that God did in your life. But this time, it's different. I can't just process things on the blog as easily. So, while I faced the hard things that were placed in our lives, I didn't blog.
The hard road that we walked didn't involve anything with you. And because of that, you and Micah have been feeling a little ignored and neglected. I'm so sorry. I wish that there was enough of me to deal with the hard and trying things, and still be the fun, loving mommy I strive to be. But this time, there just wasn't enough of me.
Lest you think your 5th birthday was a horrible, depressing day void of celebration, let me assure you that we celebrated!! We had fun together, as a family, enjoying the blessing that YOU are to us!!
Benjamin, you bring a smile to my face every single day. You are so full of life and joy that you brighten the day of anyone you meet. I love you, and am so thankful to be your Mommy!!
With all my heart,
Mommy
1 comment:
It is impossible that he's 5!
Well written by the way. :)
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